Today I decided I was going to be super productive – work in the morning, meeting at lunch time, straight home, study, train and produce maybe 2 – 3 days’ worth of social media and blog content. I managed to stick to my plan, until I got home this evening after training.
I stared at a blank page for 10 mins, started scrolling through Instagram and then started to tell myself that it was okay if I didn’t produce anything this evening. Truth is, I didn’t feel like I had anything good enough to say. The temptation to binge watch Netflix started to seem like a good idea (hello, making a murderer, series 2!) But then I thought, fuck that, stop procrastinating, pull your finger out and get something done.
Is this post going to be perfect? Nope, nothing ever is. But at least I’m doing something! I remember in school, working in a small group on a poster and a classmate saying ‘oh my god, you’re such a perfectionist’ and I remember thinking, that’s surely a good thing? I now realise that a perfectionist’s strive for flawlessness and setting high performance standards can be particularly frustrating for others, especially when you’re working on a group project.
For me, perfectionism has been a huge barrier in the past, stopping me from being productive. I have experienced that fear of ‘failing’ before I even get started and it’s paralysing.
Perfectionists tend to be hyper-critical of themselves and overly concerned with the evaluations of others. This fear and worry can feel like a really good reason not to try something you want to but you need to try and overcome this feeling. I think the feeling of regret is always worse than the temporary discomfort when you push yourself out of your comfort zone.
My family used to always comment on how similar I was to the Friends character, Monica. As I’m writing this post, I can’t help but think of the scene where she tries a tap dancing class, the teacher says ‘you in the back, you’re getting it all wrong!’ and Monica replies, ‘yeah, but at least I’m doing it!’
If there’s something you have been wanting to do for a while but have been putting it off, if you want to take steps towards improving your health but are unsure where to start. Just do something. Get something done, even if it’s messy or feels really small. By just doing it, you’ll have gained momentum, small steps will eventually lead to big changes. You’re already further along than you were yesterday.
If there is something you want to achieve, something you want to change, or something in life perhaps you’re not very happy with, ask yourself, if I am in the exact same place this time next year, how will I feel? If that thought is scary or simply out of the question, then get going, get started and, to quote Nike, just do it! What’s the worst that could happen?